chicago

on Sunday I took the train down to Chicago,

I took myself on a date to an art museum,

Walked 10 miles around the city.

It had been a wild week.

I moved a few miles from you,

Saw you at a bar,

A nod of head and backs turned.

I am sorry that we are strangers now.

It was always my greatest fear,

That we would one day not know each other,

The reality now.

In a way I am more sad that it is not as scary as I once thought.

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While I was in the city I saw someone,

I have known him for years.

We walked around and talked,

Ate sandwiches and laughed,

I didn’t think of you once.

Not until his lips met mine.

I haven’t kissed many people in the past year,

The last person I kissed was you.

No matter how much I think I like someone,

It’s the kiss that always snaps me back to reality.

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Afterwards, I walked to the water by myself.

Sat on the shore and looked at Lake Michigan the way we once did.

I remembered that I had once realized I loved you in the streets of Chicago.

The rest of my trip I walked around seeing places we had been.

I tried my best to make them mine again.

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The truth is that you have a home in my head.

It’s much harder to dig you out from there than from my heart.

If I have learned anything from my short time on this Earth, it is that no feelings are final

Feb 6, 2023